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omg i am in such a HORRIBLE megabitchy mood today >: ( i keep thinking bad bitchy thoughts but thats cos i am REALLY VERY ANNOYED at something/ someone. i hate doing things against my own will, have i said that before. i think i'm such a spoilt brat haha >: ( but i'll never really know and care because i'll never be in that situation hopefully. what must it feel like though hmmmm.

URGHHH. i think it's the lack of sleep, and the fact that i'm perioding like some tap that's got me in such a terrible mood. plus there's hardly anything to cheer me up. haha ihc was zomggg but i shant say anything because i know certain ppl read my blog and or HAHA might get here if they google something hahaa. but it wasnt the big thing that made my mood so ()&*(^&%^$!!!!!!!!


ZOMGGG. i hope my horrible mood goes away it's not healthy to be stuck in this. because i know i shouldnt be thinking horrible thoughts but I AM REALLY VERY ANNOYED. GRR. GO AWAYYY.

and omg i better not have insomnia tonight haha. anddd omg i really miss having the option of having you there to rant to whenever i felt like it. but you're now an empty void.

on a sidenote. omg i read this letter i wrote to someone last night and was so disgusted by the conversational tone of it i sort of ripped it. the number of "like.."s in it was so mortifying!! but i guess it's written like that because when i typed it i imagined myself saying everything to you haha.

haha BUTS photos!


since angel accused me of not updating! these are just the facebook photos, cant be bothered to upload the camera ones yet!

the week was pretty okay, with guides on wed and fri. striping ahh even i felt like crying, seeing our sec 1s step up and our sec 2s having come so far.

and on a slightly unrelated note, i love guides! for the wonderful juniors (: you know who you are (: (: (: thats a hint one for each of you haha!

friday also played tennis with daryl jiaks and eeks haha which was rather fun and embarrassing and funny all at once with the stupid lightning alert hahahahaha. but daryl and i won (: actually i think its thanks to him and no thanks to me hahahaha.

thursday was library with angel and then min (: yippees fun hanging out as usual!


on a sidenote, i REALLY hate being guilt-tripped into anything. cos i think i must do whatever i do out of my own free will if not i would be very grudging doing it haha.

and i guess if i could say/do anything to make it better i would. but the thing is that i can't do anything, because the ball is in your court, as it has always been. and nothing i do would make a difference at all. haha and i just realised this cos of something someone said to me randomly.

and ihc touch tmr! life is just too sianzz nowadays i need some fun in my life (:

hmm i just had this sudden thought, that i want to spend christmas this year at times square in new york! it'll be so awesome (: who wants! haha (:

! i was just thinking, and i think it's crazy how with some people, we used to be able to talk about anything under the sun and for hours on end, and these days i seem to struggle to find the words to say.
@ it's even worse that for some, we don't even say hi to each other when we pass each other by
# and :/ i feel like i'm a horrible friend sometimes
$ not making any promises is much better than making promises that you can't keep
% and sometimes i just want to scream in your face: SHUT UP. you have no right to say anything/comment
^ and i can't believe how sometimes i feel we/i don't mean as much to you as those idiots _______ (fill in the blank yourself)
& ahh actually i hate thinking so much i think someone just triggered my pet peeves again.
* somehow when you tell yourself not to cry and it's not worth it, it's actually prob about one of the most important things in your life. (this was the only insight from watching the otherwise very thrashy 9 oclock show haha)
(anddd one year ago __________ (:

goodnight world.

(:

yay i'm becoming less sian now (:

i think joys in life come back when you spend time effortlessly with people whom you love and know love you back, instead of trying so hard to please people who you have to constantly doubt how much you mean to them.


anddd once again the US uni fair tmr is a reminder to start worrying about the future again sighh

warning: photospam ;D

the week in chronology:

shine touch last saturday where we won 2nd despite being fair, fat and flabby! haha though we failed to defend our championship title that we won last year ):

with our trophies!
retarded shot:

baby's concert on sunday:

older younger brother, dad and i trooped to the arts museum first, and after walking half of it found out that we actually had to pay to enter oops.

but it was pretty fun having a whole family day haha!

baby! second from right haha!

dinner at some italian restaurant the the arts museum after that!

squidink sauce pasta!
brothers and i outside the museum (:

cupcake from karen on monday! (HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN (: )

bithday girl and her hot boys (:
drinks and appetisers!
my squidink pasta!
pok's lobster raviolli!
everyone yay!

appetizers!

oops apologies for the lack of updates! but i just didnt feel like it haha sianzz. saturday was shine, pretty fun playing with the batch all over again (: and we didnt do too badly considering how we're all fat and fair and flabby since we havent trained for two months and run very slowly! update when i finally upload photos.

zzzz lazy to type anymore!

andd there's no one to talk to online nowadays, and nothing to do online i have suddenly lost interest in dramas after i finished the previous ones. maybe this is a hint that it's time to start mugging to salvage my grades once again ):


will you __________?

sigh results are horrible ): guess that's what i get for not studying ): ): ): that's one sad face for each subject that i dropped a grade for ): ): ):

thank goodness there are random moments in life that are still able to put a smile on my face (:


shine tmr! quite exciting but haha i hope we dont lose our defending champions title :/ but considering how fat and flabby (does bong's handsign :D) we are, it's hard to say.


AHH so yes i hope tmr will play out exactly like how it did last year! except i know it certainly won't in one way ):

sigh when you listen to song lyrics and stuff sinks in it's just kind of really sad, but it's a detached sadness that i can't explain anymore. like identifying with it but without the emotional attachment so maybe people shouldnt get overly concerned when song lyrics appear on blogs/ msn nicks because most of the time (for me at least) it's simply poignancy but without much emotiional intensity.

training today was awesome shitzzz (: haha i love training and i love truggers! because training has the ability to make you forget whatever horrible day that precedes it and make you outrageously happy, even if it's for the moment! (: haha and gave out the rest of the cupcakes today and people actually ate them yippees :D

life is great, but i want to just pause it at this very point because the next few weeks seem so foreboding and depressing and lacking fun ):

anddd i hate how sometimes you can just never ask and then because you dont ask you never get what you really want.


and angel just sent me this really long poem thing! but at the end of it all, these lines are the sweetest!

That's how it would happen every time
I don't know why
I guess I don't know why I really like you
Why do I like you
I guess I just like you
I guess I just like you because I like you.

haha as i promised bong (:
haha i realised i haventbeen online for a few days, haha but the past few days have been the most fun i've had in a while, especially the weekend.


thursday went to try out the new food court with pok jiaks and jolyn before joining my mum at parkway. then went to some pub near my house to watch tennis haha.

friday! met shun and janelle after sch and we went to toast at taka for tea, which was yummy! and had a nice time talking over tea haha and recalling random funny moments which i laughed at janelle for!
then it was cousin time! met melanie at city hall to go suntec, and we got bored of it so fast we made our way down to vivo just to eat kolo mee. and got to catch up! BUT the drama was after she left me, on msn HAHA where i thought i was going to die. because i couldnt breathe properly and my chest would hurt so bad everytime i took a deep breath. so we both panicked (along with angel and val who i was scaring at the same time) and then she had to call her dad to fetch me to a clinic to get it checked out. BECAUSE MY MOTHER WAS AT A CLUB AND COULDNT HEAR HER HANDPHONE RING. so yes after an agonizing hour i think, the doctor, when he saw me and diagnosed me, half-laughed and said that he thought that all i was suffering from was a muscle pull at the neck thats why everytime i breathe it's painful zomg. haha yes so that was my near-death (or so i thought) experience.



had beach touch on saturday morning! which was awesome fun! haha playing was fun, because i was playing with wonderful people, and we were just happy to slack around and play for fun. BUT the most awesome part was the part where, while waiting for the quarter finals, we went to the fountain at the merlion, and decided to wade through it like an obstacle course. omg i dont think i can even describe what a hilarious experience it was, with all of us trying frantically to avoid being squirted at our butts and just when we laughed at someone else being squirted at, karma would strike and this jet of water would appear from nowhere and hit us in the face but omg it was totally the highlight of the day hahaha! and you can really only do this sort of retarded things with a bunch of retarded girlfriends (:

then after the whole thing we went back to sch for camp, and had our second adventure as we climbed over the fence from the back since the gate was locked! and then played some funny candle game with our juniors before sitting at some place on the 4th floor talking till 3am, which was damn niceeee (: haha and laughing at a certain scandalous someone half the time hahahaha. then before we went to sleep, we were predicting how maybe tmr we would be able to sleep in and not have to wake up at 7 because our jnrs wouldnt dare to wake us up, just like how we were so nice and let our snrs sleep in last year. but NO the first thing i saw when i woke up was rachel's face and her going: yijunnnnn wake upppppp! hahahahaa. so we played game with our jnrs and then had farewell, and omg they are so sweet i almost cried when they were singing to us ): i hate farewells boo ):


Later, Derelyn gave Fifi Karen angel and i a lift to SA's astro turf for contact training. yay my first time at contact! (: Since we all had never played contact before (except Fifi), she taught us how to tackle people and how to fall down. haha and omg we really looked like retards/ humpty dumptys i think hahah! and we kept falling on each others wrists and getting hit all over and stuff so painful and derel kept calling us nehnehs cos we were whining too much haha. And after that short approximately 30min crashcourse, we played 10s with primary school Sa boys. (who were SOOO CUTE but omg they are vindictive one of them even fouled me by making a high tackle cos he jumped and grabbed my neck and tried to pull it down). We all didnt find it very fun cos there were too many people for us to run and stuff, so we didnt enjoy it. and because they're really tiny, they couldnt tackle us properly, and 3 of them would just try and jump on us at once. then after that the rest of the girls decided to play 7s with each other, which was a lot more fun!! and then we actually managed to tackle ppl correctly! yay(: but then poor angel sprained her ankle ): and had to limp all the way to the mrt): but on the way there we had HIPHOP JELLY yummz and bubble tea :D

then after that i went home to bathe before making my way to kelly's house! and then had bbq with her family on her rooftop! (: and her dog (cookie!) is superduper cute i think she likes me (: except for when she pounced on me excitedly while i was sitting down and talking to kelly and scared the hell out of me hahaha! and then we baked at night (: HAHAHA which was a fiasco hahahaha but anyway her brothers ate most of the basic cupcakes since our attempts at decorating them failed so we just ate the decorations and the cupcakes separately hahaha! then by the time we finished it was midnight so we packed up and then went to her room and talked talked talked which is basically what you do at sleepovers anyway (:

then today morning went shopping at vivo! yay (: i love shopping with you girlfriend :D haha


and then now i am at home, after an exhausting but nevertheless extremely fun past three days (: and now it's time for photos!
yay our team for beach touch which was sponsored by red dot rebels!HAHA SUCH A CUTE PHOTO:
and this photo is quite cool because i am scoring a try yay! but the whole point of it is to show the whole bunch of rowdy red dot rebels at the side cheering for us, which was quite scary haha.YES HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: FOUNTAIN (: (: (:at the end of it all!
with the sentosa mascot!
both teams!
HAHA on our way to the fountain! we were all suposed to be different animals HAHA LOOK AT BONG SHE'S THE KUNGFU PANDA HAHAH

(: yayyy
haha random shot after we bathed.
stuff from j1, awesomezzzzeveryone that was at camp!our wonderful batch <333333and at kelly's house!
yay the nicest of the cupcakes we baked (:

omg i am like suffering from some damn weird illness now it's like some heartburn thing and i am damn scared because i dont know what it is and its freaking unconfortable because i cant breathe properly! ahh i hope i dont die tonight i seriously thought i might suffocate somehow.

anyway if i die im just going to need to say I LOVE YOU to all the people i love ahhh!

omg okay so i am not dying. the doctor says i pulled my neck muscle thats why when i breathe its painful. but wth i couldnt have pulled it from captain's ball could i. zomg scare me for nothing. but it really IS still painful!!

woah shit i am freaking tired today, shouldnt have stayed up till so late last night all for doing something so silly ):

so i am going to sleep before 12 today!

monday HAHA donuts (: haha to which our jnrs said: no wonder the snrs want to come for training, must be eat too many donuts alr! >:( hahaha

and hung around after sch with karen after angel abandon us after eating my donuts hmphh haha and then with bong for a while before going home with rachel! yay what a wonderful first day of sch (: (technically haha)

tues! hung out with val after sch yay (: and with pok jiaks berny at the litweek booth before going with angel and karen to watch the lit week play and then for training. where the most exciting thing was spyinggg. WOOHOO YETTTTTTTTTT. HAHAH ZOMG (: (: (: (: haha karen and angel will knowww haha love in is the air YAYYYYYY but i dont have any boy in my life ): but i have ANGEL HAHAHAHAHAA. and of course last night was an extremely retarded night as the previous post shows, but i was being an even greater retardddddd than that ):

today! haha lit week and then guides haha! it's crazy how striping seemed just so recent and now our little sec 1s are taking over and becoming COH? haha ooh :D

okay this is quite a retarded post but we just need to spread the loveeeeeee that's in the air.

and remind myself to stop being such a stupid girl. although i think these reminders never actually work ):

angel's nick: TODAY IS AN IMPORTANT DAY! IT'S ILOVEYIJUN DAY! (:

ACTUALLY, to angel, it's ILOVEYIJUN day everyday :D look at how she declares her love for me on her blog! (thank me angel im giving you more readers :D) haha!

loveeee makes the world go round woohoo!



YIJUN LOVES ANGEL! says:
bored la!!! oops
ANGEL LOVES YIJUN MUCHMUCHMORE says:
WOOHOO
ANGEL LOVES YIJUN MUCHMUCHMORE says:
I WIN

(and i was giving her an example about a poem on a brownie cos she suggested writing one)
yijun! says:
like: you are as brown as a brownie,
as sweet as the chocolate chips
you're so nice you make me go gooey like fudge
you brighten up my life like the rainbow coloured rice
yijun! says:
HAHA
angel says:
OMG
angel says:
ARE YOU SURE YOU'RE SECOND IN CLASS AND YOU WERE ONCE A GEPPER?

my literary talent goes unappreciated ): haha okay but fine the poem was crap haha sounds like what a five year old will write to the girl he likes after drawing her a brownie on a drawing block haha